I am back

I am back to my blog. Why ? Coz i am sad.  Seems like when i can never share something with anyone i come here. I am going through the worst breakup ever and its gona hurt like a motherfuker.
But the thing is. Everything is going to be alright. Time heals everything.

Chitral trip

I just hate myself. Hate myself so much. I don't even know why. If my life ends here at this very moment i wont even worry about that.  I just want to do some stupid thing. I might leave for Chitral in an hour at this time of night coz doing this is stupid. I hate itttttt. Fuck itttttttttt

Dukh kia hota hai

This pain forced me to write all this
I cant even explain
I want to scream, throw things away and pata ni kia
But i cant

Kho Dena Kisi Ko

Darr hai oosay kho dene ka.
Kisay ?
Hai aik jo hai b ni mera
Phir kho dena ? Aur kho dene ka dar ? Yeh kaisay ?
Haan. Yehi ajeeb c baat hai
Woh hai. But mera nahin.
Na he ho skta hai kabhi.
Lakin ni samjha skta apany ap ko yeh sb
Sb khuch jaantay huay b
Khauf hai yeh thora sa

Khafa Kia Man

I have to be careful. Cant afford another breakup. For the last two years I never felt this way. But now again i have feelings for someone. What kind of feelings. No idea. Also i dont want to give it a name. I am afraid to give it a name. This time i wont be able to survive. Survive in the sense that I wont be able to do perform daily routine things. My mind is already fucked up. Thats why I dont this feeling to develop into something I regret and cant survive later.

Life

Life was so much fun. When we were kids.

2016

Sometimes life is sad. 2016 wasn't a good year for me. A lot of things changed. Some i regret some i don't. I have no idea what next is coming. I don't know what I want from life.

Complications

What if you listen to some tune and you like it. And that tune happens to be the holy song of some other religion. And you like just the tune. Don't understand what it says or means. Is it ok ? Things are complicated. We human beings sometimes make it complicated. You get this life once. Don't make it complicated.

Application

This blogging app on my cell phone is awesome. So here is the status. Physical: not good. Mental: bad. I haven't found yet what I want to do in my life. I was on my bed the whole day. Didn't go out. Saw videos on YouTube. Watched Casey Neistat the whole day. Who mentioned that how it is possible for people to get time for being bored. And that's what I did the whole day. I was bored. I watched his YouTube videos. Strange. Over all i am not a good person. This was not my opinion about myself few years ago. I used to consider myself very reasonable guy. Not anymore. I hate it.

Everyone is Beutiful

Thing is you can never say to anyone that you aren't beautiful. Not even behind their back. Everyone is beautiful. Life is tough. Dealing with vendors is tough. Some times elastic in trouser or shorts is also tough. So deal with it.

Work Harder - Casey Neistat

You may not be a very blessed person in this life. You might not be good looking. You might not be v intelligent. You might have many issues. You might not be rich etc etc. But thing is you can always work harder and become the most hardworking person ever. No one can take that from you.
This theory exist forever. And I totally agree with it. The person who impressed me the most with this theory and practically from his life is Casey Neistat. Great man. Respect. He has many other theories which I love. will share from time to time. Work Harder.

Nice People on Planet Earth in My Life

From now on I have decided to write something about the people I really like. I might just write their names but will mention them.

Dealing with Vendors

Dealing with vendors in office is fun sometimes and painful most of the time. Thing is this is a very serious topic. I mean one can write for many paragraphs on it. But as you know my blog is full of seriousness so no need to discus in detail. Though I ll be mentioning it later may be in other posts. Also I think 1 GB RAM is must now in smart phones. Yesterday I solved my car's starting problem. Also did tuning of car from Topi for just Rs 100.

After So Hello

So hello. Long time. No see ? Today I thought to write something but then I thought its been so many months since last time i wrote something for my blog so I shouldn't write now. Then I thought if I wont write now, it ll be more late. you know what I mean so I decided to write something. Also this is my blog. Only I read my posts so no worry to write after so many months. Though I totally want some traffic here on my blog. I saw Highway yesterday and found it awesome. Different movie and Alia Bhatt made me her fan. I have a new mobile now. Nokia Lumia 625. I had Nokia Lumia 900 before and it was also awesome. Before that I had Blackberry. I think I have written something about my awesome blackberry as well on this blog. Sometimes I think, are twitter and facebook are not enough for me as far as social media is concerned. Why I use blog and the answer to this very question is very dramatic. ie. No. It is summer. It is not as hot as it used to be last month but still not possible without AC. Posting it now.

I dont like it

What I want to do is not acceptable to the real world. And I have to live my life according to the people I belong. I don't like it.

Thinger

So this is the thing. The thing is that its a thing. Ok actually the thing is the thing the thing.ok

Randomness

Actually I tried to write something for my blog but my friend ruined it. Dexter Morgan is my favorite character now. Update your record you al people. Thats it for now.

Darkness

In office right now. No more tinted glass in my car. now I can see the world more clearly and the world can see me. Hope not clearly. I have to keep my mask on and have to act normal. This is the way I have to live. One thing I have learned if you tell your problems to others they either make fun of you or say you are a looser. To be honest I do the same thing with my friends. I don't consider their problems as big as mine. This society has taught me this. As far as society is concerned I hate Pakistani society. There are many good things in Pakistani society/ culture but there are many drawbacks as well and instead of correcting them we appreciate them and strictly follow them. I ll discus this later in detail.

All by Myself

Am not ok. Am not happy. But how I smile ? Still ? This world sees me as a very happy person. But there is pain inside I cant share with anyone. I have to live with it. Nothing is going ok in my life.

Not very Happy Today

I am writing today after very long time. No problem. March it is . No more sweaters etc. Now after 25 years of my life I am convinced I should buy a laptop fo0r myself. Lets see when I am able to buy a laptop. I don't enjoy Facebook anymore. And why this internet does not have Top Gear Season 19 Episode 6 ? Its now more than 3 days yaar. Yeah another thing everything right now going wrong in my life. I am so stressed. Anyway I wana forget it totally. Another thing I ll regret , one of my friend who has always helped me whenever I asked him, asked me for help but I couldn't. Its not that I didn't want to help, I couldn't I couldn't :( and that is so sad. Not happy today.

Deep down 77 meters

A lot of things happening in Pakistan and I have a lot of  topics to blog about but blogging today because I am sad.Right now if you knock my door, I ll open the door and you ll meet one of the happiest man but at that same moment I confess deep down I have a heart which is very emotional.

its 3:26 am

k teri yaad may yeh aag laga di ab
its very late in morning and i am here writing for blog don't know why. I don't know which is my real me ? The happy one the sad one. I can manage pretending happy but sometime think that i am a happy person i cant stay sad for long time. No idea which is real me. Few years back I wasn't like this. Was very practical. Listening Tumhara aur mera naam. Want to sleep but cant sleep. This blog. here i share feelings. Strange feelings.

Post in November 2012

Hahahahahaha hello.So aftyer a long time I want to write pointless. My friends say my number of tweets have decreased. They are right. Liking Sherlock Holmes. In office right now. Just finished with making salary stuff. Islamabad is beautiful in this November. Like always. Yes tired today. Busy day in office. Our office received a letter from a student in Swat. That was strange. Reconciling bank statements now. Sleepy but have plans of watching Barfi tonight. Ciao

After Long Time - The Dark Knight falls

Hello all how are you ? "All" as if two hundred thousand people read my blog. Anyway just bought a computer table for my room and finally now the room looks super clean. Everything has a place now. May be I upload pic. I know I wont. Anyway. Now planning to buy some smart phone. My friend Jibran gave me a suggestion to buy Huwaei phone. I hope its good. Lets see. Weather is good in Islamabad now days but not sure for coming days. I think it ll be hot. I am not liking this new setting at my room that much. But anyway. writing for my blog after very long time. Guys I was super busy. And yes I saw this bat man film. Didn't like it at all. I mean I liked the last hour but not the Bat Man. I mean he is the super hero. He has to have the ability to kick the bad people's ass but bad people were like more in form and they kicked his ass. Thumbs down.

Shaaeefana Guftugu

Well this is my blog. I can write anything here unlike Kuch Khass blog where I try to write something sensible. Though I fail every time. I am proud of it. Now trying to be a little bit poetic. Life brings us many surprises. Some good, some bad. My friends at SZABIST is one of the most wonderful surprise life has given to me.

What if we dont have this much technology

Jab tayray shehar say guzarta hun. No idea why but this is in my mind since morning. I think I need to go on a road trip. That is why I am blogging. One of my very good friend Omer Jan told us about his away day somewhere in Kashmir. No mobile phone signals there. And because of it no texts no calls Facebook, twitter, emails etc. And told that the day became longer and peaceful. We waste a lot of time on this cell phone. It clicked in my mind. I still remember my good school days when we didn't have any cell phones and we used to make plans on tuka basis. But at that time commitment was very important for people. Now we cancel anything just by sending a text message. Why I am serious? So temperature is 34'C in Islamabad right now. I like Lady Gaga by the way. Yes I do. Imagine my to be wife (jo b hogi) reads my blog. Lo g Rishta udhar he khatam.  But I don't care you know. whatever. Kidding darling. I do. ;) ahem ahem so where were we.

One sided Love Story

I am not feeling good - Emotionally

Escaping nights without you with shadows on the wall
My mind is running wild tryin hard not to fall
You tell me that you love me but say I m just a friend
my heart is broken up into pieces
Cause i know i'll never free my soul
it's trapped in between true love and being alone
When my eyes are closed the greatest story told
I woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor

Why oh why tell me why not me
Why oh why we're meant to be 
if you only knew how much i love you
So why not me

The day after tomorrow I'll still be around
To catch you when you fall and never let you down
you say that were forever our love will never end
I've tried to come up but it's drowning me to know
you'll never feel my soul
It's trapped in between true love and being alone
when my eyes are closed the greatest story told
i woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor

Emotions

Emotional I am right now so much. Going through a strange phase in life. So much pressure. So much tension. Disappointment. Can't handle it. No positive thoughts.

Main pagal ni hun

Writing. Extremely tired and this flu thing making it worse. Went to home last weekend. Life is so simple in Tarbela. Trying to sell my bike. Our security guard is saying prayers. In extreme mental pressure now days. Islamabad is good. But no good and less expensive psychologist here. Main pagal ni hun. pain inside. But I dont look emotional. I have to confess - suicidal tendencies.

Awkward

The awkward situation when you are in love. When you can't even tell you are in love. When the other person doesn't even know you are in love with that person. And you live life just like that. Great.

Islamabad Traffic Police ITP - The main cause of accidents

So I just called ITP office and registered a complaint. Though I am not sure my complaint is registered or not. Anyway two main complaints I have against ITP. When they stop people who are over speeding, the police officers themselves become the main cause of accidents. I was going to hit them today and while saving them I was going to hit another car. ( Just want to make it clear I wasn't over speeding ). I mean what kind of traffic police is this? Not only this I have another issue, ITP is very rude now. They use balloons on different occasions to give soft, kind & nice image but in reality it is opposite now. I am not saying it on the basis of rude behavior from one or two officers. I kind of did research on it. I intentionally made mistakes in front of them to notice their behavior. No doubt it is still better than the crime police in Islamabad but it is not that traffic police which we used to like. The friendly police.

A Big Giant House

After very long time when you start writing a post for your blog you found that you have nothing to write about. Anyway this is what I always do. So no need to worry. Met two very good friends of mine. Shoaib and Mehmood whom we call Mamoo. My best buddies. So life is full of tension in my case and Shoaib and Mehmood are enjoying in F - 9 park. How lucky they are. My blackberry is doing fine. Yes it is. Two to three things I do normally in a day. Office, FRIENDS and then sleep. So though I don't want to mention any FRIENDS Star in this post still I am mentioning Chandler Bing. He is awesome who uses funny jokes and sarcastic comments as defense mechanism :) Man its sounding so much funny to me. I know you are getting bored. But it does not bothers me. So to conclude Take Care.

Matt LeBlanc in Top Gear

Writing about politics sucks. So last night saw Top Gear Season 18 episode 2. It was mind blowing. Nascars, Chinese Car Industry. But the thing I am excited about is Matt LeBlanc. He was the star in reasonably priced car. I am a big big big fan of Friends team and guess what he did top the chart. He is the fastest star in Top Gear. I know it is boring for you guys but its Joey Tribbiani for me. So Jeremey Clarkson and James May said it is very possible that after five years we ll start using Chinese cars. And Yes, I dont know why but here I have to confess I have a huge crush on Jennifer Aniston. I thought these are temporary feelings. Anyway. I am feeling very hungry now. Gona eat something. Back to reality.

Pakistan Zindabad

Writing a new post without having any idea in mind is the most difficult thing to do in life. No it isn’t :) The way I write is fun. Just write and see what you have written. If its not up to the mark, post it fast. But wait an idea came into my mind just now. Why don’t I write about the great win by Pakistani Team last day. Pakistan has won the test series. A clean sweep. White washed (term that is being used now days in excitement) England and won the series 3-0. What a proud moment for Pakistan. England is the number one team now days and defeating number one this way is a big thing no doubt. We all Pakistani are very emotional about this cricket thing and react in extreme ways. Well done Pakistani team. You rock. Misbah our new captain is awesome. No doubt. I am sure Pakistani media must have shown Pakistani team as a hero. And they should have. But one thing I noticed Geo yesterday did air reports about Amir, Asif and Salman Butt making us realize what we went through last time we played against England. Actually I hate Geo. Anyway its sunny day but very cold breeze. Islamabad is awesome.

Twitter rocks

Application that I use the most is Twitter. Most of people don't know the main point of having twitter account. I mean on twitter you have to tweet all the time unlike facebook where you set your status once a day or when you doing something v special. My friends ask me why i tweet so much. My answer to them is this is my life, my account on twitter I ll do whatever I want to. And also understand the point of using twitter. Twitter rocks.

Having a Blackberry

I have Blackberry curve 8520. Show off ? No yar its v old model. Not that old yar. I am addicted to it now. I have six mobile phone sets in my bag right now. I buy mobile phones. I don't sell them. I never buy with the intention of selling them. Same is the case with my blackberry. I love it and I am not gona sell it. On buying blackberry 1st thing you experience is your friends' funny sarcastic comments , OK now you are business man. There is no point of having blackberry and not using BIS. Its like buying a tetra pack without milk in it. You have to take care of your cell phone. You cant throw it or drop it on ground like I used to do it with my other mobiles. it does khilar. Your parents ask you how do you type in it. buttons are very small. and when they use it they press two or three buttons at a time. Over all very nice smart phone. A serious post again ? how ?Am I OK ?

New seating arrangement in my office

I have new seating arrangement in my office and to be honest i am not liking it. Or may be it ll take time to get used to of it. Talking of office seating arrangements, Chandler Bing of FRIENDS come into my mind. He said once, my boss said he might get a new lamp in his cubical. hahahha. I know you don't understand the joke. It sounds funny to me whenever i think of it. Coz i have seen FRIENDS four times. So now while facing my computer screen I can see the view outside through a large window. But I am not in Naran Kaghan or Kalaam or even Murree. All I can see is three houses, giant one. Rich people of Islamabad. Anyway. Match going to start in few mins. 3rd test between Pakistan and England. I hope and pray Pakistan wins. Why my this post sounding very serious. Or it is sounding very serious to me only?

I slept for 10 hours

No doubt am getting fat. And the reason is I sleep a lot. Yes it is. Hey what is this 2G scandal in India. telecom Sector. Reliance, TATA, Uninor are fined 5 crore each. any way. one of my friend is moving to real estate sector again. I am hungry and today I am going to eat savour. No winter as such in Islamabad. Still i wear my jacket. I mean its cold but not that cold. Finally Standard Chartered Bank has resolved dollars issue. Mind not working yar. Tension is in the air.

No Dollars ? Standard Chartered ?

Shame shame Standard Chartered Bank. You are here for good ? No dollars available in any branch of Standard Chartered in Islamabad. I have been trying to withdraw dollars from Islamabad Awan Arcade branch, F - 7 branches and other branches too. But they say we don't have dollars. Did we open bank accounts with you so that you don't give our money back to us ? Very bad management.

Testing email service for blogging.

Just testing blogging from email service. I don't know it works or not.

Winter in 2012

Winters going ok.

For Thumbnail

SO uploading this image just for thumbnail whenever I share my blog on various social network websites.

Things Change

Yes things change in life within months, in fact within days. Lets see what happens now. Alot of tension. Not a very good start of this new year. ok then.

Year 2012

So its year 2012. nothing special. 1st rain of this winter today. mood is off. life is bad. no excitement.

After Long Weekend

Yes I am Back from Tarbela to Islamabad. Tarbela is one of the most beautiful place in Pakistan. No doubt. And the simplicity there.I miss Tarbela. I am back to Islamabad. don't know what to write more. very much tired. I dont think I ll be going to gym tonight. Sleepy. And Hungry and sleepy again.

the busiest routine ever

I am the busiest man in the world. I am sure. Write my name in Guines Books of busiest man. ufff. Anyway right now am at my friend salman's office and we are working on our MBA project. This laptop is boiling. Life is busy. am v sleepy and v tired. I dont think what am doing is blogging. I am not using twitter now days. I dont know what is happening in life .

Comments deleted. Why ?

what people do, they chat on their facebook post as comments and then delete them after the chat is over. haha. Anyway its very hard to get up early in morning for job in winters. Specially when you sleep at 3 in night. I was trying to work on my MBA project thing but could not. Reached office late at 9:25 am today. Gym is good. you feel fresh you eat good you sleep well. This new Kaspersky 2012 sort of heavy specially when it is updating itself. what a great thing to tell u people. haha. what people ? no one visits my blog. what happens in my life and what is in my thoughts I share here. almost everything but not everything yar.
anyway this way

Aiween

was in F-8 Markaz with my friend Bilal Zeb who came to Islamabad to solve his car registration issue. We could not. Anyway i found a magnet attached to my bike today. Is this something serious ?i know its not. Problem solver = Manager. Started going to gym. Yesterday was 1st day after very long break. Pain in whole body. Especially in biceps ( not sure spellings are correct ).
So thats it
now you have very good idea my life sucks :)

this is my new post

yes yes this is my new post. I am in office right now in full tension. Have to submit one report today to my boss and am a bit late. cannot concentrate coz of tension. Though I can handle things under pressure. I am trained to work under pressure. Writng this to release tension. But haha it has doubled it :D
very good Asad you are great.

FRIENDS

In LOVE with Jennifer Aniston

Yes I am in love with Jennifer Aniston. What happened that I finished FRIENDS (all ten seasons) two weeks back and that's why still cant get myself out from its magic. Its awesome and i fell in love with Jennifer Aniston in it.
I know its childish and i know its contemporary marketing :S feeling but seriously I promise its very pure and strong feeling. It does not happen to me normally. I never wanted to go abroad but now I want to move to New York and have gup shup with her. hahaha. now I am very mental I know . And its normal man, I am her fan actually. There must be thousand of men more crazy than me for her. It happens I guess. Don't worry A sad boy :)

Am confused what to do ?

Heart is emotional

Brain is wise

Heart's decisions look beautiful

Brain always thinks right

Does it exist ? No eat stones

yes i think it does ..... I know I am stupid. it does not :) hahahahaha. never be emotional. be emotionless. eat stones. big stones . rocks may be. but i think it does exist. think from brain. forget everyone and eat stones

love for 911

Porsche, a car that once used to look like beetle to me. Now I love that car.it is awesome. What this shows that mind changes. I think my mind changes. I dun know...................... Wait Asad, be patient and see your mind changes or not. Coz cars dun mind, humans do.......

Islamabad & Cold ?

I am back to Islamabad.O my God the backspace button works very fast as compared to blackberry's. I have been watching Friends from 2 pm and now its 4:30 pm. I am informative I know I am. having cold. I think its the right word. Have to go to office tomorrow. O man lot of work to be done. I be busy v much from tomorrow.

pehli post not really

Dont know what to write
i know I am cool