One sided Love Story

I am not feeling good - Emotionally

Escaping nights without you with shadows on the wall
My mind is running wild tryin hard not to fall
You tell me that you love me but say I m just a friend
my heart is broken up into pieces
Cause i know i'll never free my soul
it's trapped in between true love and being alone
When my eyes are closed the greatest story told
I woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor

Why oh why tell me why not me
Why oh why we're meant to be 
if you only knew how much i love you
So why not me

The day after tomorrow I'll still be around
To catch you when you fall and never let you down
you say that were forever our love will never end
I've tried to come up but it's drowning me to know
you'll never feel my soul
It's trapped in between true love and being alone
when my eyes are closed the greatest story told
i woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor

Emotions

Emotional I am right now so much. Going through a strange phase in life. So much pressure. So much tension. Disappointment. Can't handle it. No positive thoughts.

Main pagal ni hun

Writing. Extremely tired and this flu thing making it worse. Went to home last weekend. Life is so simple in Tarbela. Trying to sell my bike. Our security guard is saying prayers. In extreme mental pressure now days. Islamabad is good. But no good and less expensive psychologist here. Main pagal ni hun. pain inside. But I dont look emotional. I have to confess - suicidal tendencies.

Awkward

The awkward situation when you are in love. When you can't even tell you are in love. When the other person doesn't even know you are in love with that person. And you live life just like that. Great.